THE VERGE OF LOSING IT!





Walking down the woods,
deciding what next to do with my life after so many years of trying hard but failing at every attempt,
It appeared I was doing nothing but beating the air!
Sweating profusely but yielding no desired fruit!

My emotions became thick as clouds
My emotions appeared deep as the sea

Suicidal thoughts flooded my mind.
I thought it wasn't really going to matter to anyone,
All because I saw myself as an insignificant figure!


At a point,
I gave up giving up
I decided to cheer up
I decided to make myself a significant figure

But how was this going to be possible?

I sat down in the woods listening to the chirping of birds
'If the birds constantly sounded happy', why can't I? I said.
Why can't I!


Suddenly, I felt like a bucket of liquid was poured on me
This liquid was 'restlessness'
I ran like I was chased by a ghost
I didn't know what direction I was heading to

Worse, I didn't care because I had no one except my cloudy thoughts

With hot tears rolling down my chin,
I fell on my knees and said Lord, what is the way out?


I looked back at the life of sorrow which I had just left
I looked at how dark it was

I looked at how many scars I had gotten
'Life isn't worth it', I shouted
A voice said 'life is really worth it if you make it worth it'

How was I going to go about this?

I fell flat praying for death to pay me a visit
Even death didn't want a miserable soul like me.

What's my worth then?
A voice from my subconscious replied 'I'm priceless'
I began to lift myself up with the strength the voice brought
I gathered courage & it paid off!


I ran this time laughing with a light heart
I was happy not because I had a billion dollars
But because my soul found its worth once again

All I needed was that voice!
All I needed was a little courage!
All I needed was to hold on!

All I needed was to stay strong!

All I needed was never to make situations that seemed like failures make me feel worthless!

All I needed was self love!





Written by: Iyun
Edited & published by: I_am Wisdom

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